The Sound of Settling

Apparently my last post was the big 170.


So here is the even bigger 171! There is no area code in the United States that is 171.





I've been on this kick lately, where I feel like my life is very meaningless. This is something I have been struggling with a lot recently. I feel like my failures greatly out-weigh my accomplishments, and frankly, this is not the way I want to live. So for the past few weeks I have been trying to compile a few different ideas as to what I want to do.


Long story short, I feel the need to do something life changing. The likely hood of this happening is little to none.


The best option seems to be joining the military. After doing quite a bit of research I decided on the Army. The Marines were my first choice, but since I have so many tattoos I cannot join. But that is okay, I have no regrets.


I have been looking into the Army, trying to decided when I would go, find what jobs I would do and so on. I was 75% sure I would be joining. The only thing that was holding me back was the fact that I would have to leave Van, and I really don't like the idea of that. I still sit and wait for a sign though, to show me what I should or shouldn't do.


Strangely enough, though, I think I kind of found it.


This morning, at about 6 AM, I had a dream.





Van and I were in a plane, waiting for it to take off. Everyone was seated, thick fog clouded the surrounding area. The pilot spoke over the loudspeaker, telling us that we were ready for take off. The engines started, the plane began to move forward, steadily gaining speed. It began to lift, as if slowly peeling gravity off of it in thick layers. Though, just as it started to leave the ground, it would slam back down, unable to break free from the runway. The captain came over the loudspeaker again, apologizing. He tried to lift the plane off again, but the same thing happened. We were nearing the end of the run-way. Finally, on the third try, the plane lifted. It accelerated upward, passing through the fog. It increased in altitude, then finally leveled out as it reached it's peak in the sky. Only then did it start to waver side to side. The plane shook violently as it began it's downward spiral. I then got a view of the front of the plane, as if a camera were stuck on the nose of it, pointing downward at the on-coming ocean.


All I really remember at this point, was the plane's rapid decent to the ground and the impact as it hit the ocean. I do not know how I got out of the plane, I do not know how I got my seat belt off. The next thing I remember is being swept away underwater, disoriented and hazy, my vision tunneling and my limbs weighing me down. Suddenly, I felt a hand on the back of my shirt-collar and heard Van's voice in my head saying "I gotcha...", then suddenly being pulled quickly upward. It was at this point that I woke up.








I feel like this dream means something, but I'm really not sure what. Its kind of making me lean more toward not joining the Army for some reason. We will see.





Now that I have gotten that out of my system, I would like to share something with you.

Archer Farms S'mores trail mix. It is strangely delicious and most likely very unhealthy.

BUT it tastes JUST like Dairy Queen's Pecan Mudslide (minus the caramel, plus graham cracker bits). I am strongly considering throwing some on top of ice cream. Delicious delicious...
I got it at Target, perhaps it can be purchased other places too. I then snacked on that and a bag of free popcorn while watching Kick Ass.

And as for you who are curious about Kick Ass, I give it a 6.8/10. Think a more comedic version of Watchmen, but with kids in it instead of adults. Also an hour shorter and no blue penis.

HUGERUNONSENTENCE

Look at how sexy this blog looks. Yeah, go ahead... look at it... take it in... there ya go.



Now that we have that out of our system lets move along.

Another day off today.
Hours have been bad.
Too much spare time.
Yet not enough.


I've been painting again, which tends to be a good sign.
Its been all water colors, mostly of pictures of sushi.
my cat is about to pounce on my hands, so please pardon any interruption.


Today is not going to be a good day.
I hate to have such negativity, but my stomach hurts, so I can't help it.
Ah well.


This weekend is a barbecue at work. I think I will be making cheesecake and mountain dew cupcakes.


Now, lets move onto something more interesting.

I watched A Clockwork Orange last night, and I will be the first to admit that I thought it was a horrible movie. Not only was it two hours and 17 minutes too long, but it made little to no sense.
Now, I know there is some hipster out there reading this saying that I am blind and ignorant for not understanding, and I am intellectually inferior, but strangely enough, I am okay with that.
I've read all of these blogs and reviews and websites that say that it is one of the most disturbing movies of all time. Most sites rank it in the top 10 or 15.
Honestly, I'd have to go with...no. Perhaps I am a sick, strange person for not finding this movie disturbing in the least, but I can;t really help that. The violence was not graphic, and most of the time the scene just cut away instead of showing what happened.
I suppose for its time it was very disturbing, but in this day and age, it wasn't much.
In all honesty, I though Reservoir Dogs had more of an edge to it, along with Requiem for a Dream.
Kids these days.

The most disturbing movie I've seen is Untracable. That is by far the most fucked up film I couldn't bear to stomach. It just freaked me out.
I can deal with Saw, which isn't really saying much, but for some reason Untracable really got to me.

Some day I'll grow some balls and watch Audition, but I think I'll wait a little bit on that one.


Moving right along, I saw Diary of a Wimpy Kid at the theater yesterday.
Could have been cute, yes, but it had one of the LEAST likeable main characters of any movie I have ever seen. What an annoying little brat. Next to Alice in Wonderland (the new one, of course. I'll touch on that later.)
I will admit that it had quite a few funny parts, and I would watch it again, but the main character was just a pain in the ass! Thats kids for you.

Now, for anyone that actually reads this and HASNT seen Alice in Wonderland yet, here are my thoughts on it:

It was worth seeing...just to see it, I guess. The visuals were spectacular, and they kept some of the original quotes in, but honestly, they should have gone all or nothing with it. The girl that played Alice was an awful little wretch, I thought. Thankfully they didn't over-do Johnny Depp's part like I thought they would.I'm sure I would have loved it 3 or 4 years ago when I basically breathed Tim Burton films, but after seeing everything he's done already, it was very run of the mill and predictable, with the same cast and the same music he has in every other movie he does.If you like Tim Burton, and you like Alice in Wonderland, this is the best way I can put it:Just because your two favorite foods are chili dogs and chocolate milkshakes, doesnt mean that theyre going to be any good if you blend them together.


Yes, that was taken from my Facebook, incase you were curious.



At this point, I think I am going to make something to eat!

Stay Frosty

Never was I one for St. Patrick's Day, to be completely honest.

The only interesting memory I really have of it is hanging out at my friend Kevin's house because it was his mom's birthday. We watched Mrs. Doubtfire and ate petit fours.

That's really all I ever remember about the holiday.

Perhaps I am not Irish enough to care? Since, in all actuality, I am not Irish at all, despite the ginger hair, the ghastly pallor and the gangly frame.

Alas, though, good old Saint Patrick did bring one good thing into this world:

I remember back in the day when Burger King had black cherry milkshakes.

that was THE SHIT!

Not literally.

But god those things were delicious.

And now, for something not so delicious, I would like to share with you several of the different McSandwiches from around the world, including the McLobster and the McSpam and Eggs.

You can see those here.

McDonald's McLobster.





PS- Free Rita's water ice this Saturday! GET IT! GET IT! HELL YEAH!

Open Your Eyes, Your Eyes Are Open

Hey there champs!
Again, its been quite a long time since I've said anything on here. I really need to get into the habit of updating this regularly, whether anyone reads it or not. Its just a good thing to do.
Thankfully I will be able to do this more easily now since I got a new phone.
Yes, I know, I know, I hoped on the band wagon and got a smartphone that's going to cost me out the ass monthly, but at least I will have my Internet and I can update here on a very regular, and I fear multi-daily basis.
Unfortunately I have been rather museless recently.
Though, I will quickly mention that I just turned 20 the other day.
And I cannot believe it.
I feel.
old.

I feel like things get real now, and I don't know if I'm ready for that. Perhaps this is something I should get used to.

I will also quickly mention that I just got back from the movies with Van.
We saw She's Out of my League.
It was a cute movie, for the most part, it was also funny, but I found that it was far too long for what it was.
If you're a fan of Knocked Up, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Zack and Miri Make a Porno, or Fan Boys, you will most likely enjoy this movie.

A few hours ago I also got a Formsprings account.
Honestly, I don't even know what it is, nor do I think it seems interesting.
Ah well, we shall see.

I believe my username for it is XOskellyton.


PS

Play Rainbow Unicorn Attack. Its fun an addicting.
http://games.adultswim.com/robot-unicorn-attack-twitchy-online-game.html

Toothy Cooter

A time in Philly for a short while.
We havent had the whole family here in quite some time; my brother, sister and I.
A lot of people in the house.

We are having a late Christmas.
Some cash and some concert tickets.
Bamboozle!

Valentines Day was wonderful.
Van and I have been together for a year now. Just had out anniversary. We went to the Melting Pot, which was wonderful and I got a beautiful diamond necklace.
Very nice.

This May my family (brother, sister, parents) and I are going to the Bahamas. I expect that it will be really fun.
I do worry though, because we will be traveling by boat.
My fear of water has been increasing dramatically as time goes on. I worry that I may have to undergo some form of therapy, which I do not look forward to, but I will do what I have to.

Anyhow, that is enough of an update for now.



Also, I have revamped my youtube, so you can find me at r4gdoll.

That is all.

Captain Planet?

A start to healthier living?
Sure.
Recently we have decided to eat healthier food. Maybe some fresh fruits and veggies instead of the tons of frozen waffle and perogies that made up our entire diet. All things seem to be going pretty well!
Hopefully we'll stick to it, yes?

I am off of work today, which is nice, since its been a couple of days. I have off tomorrow too.
Yesterday Van and I got sushi with Stokes while he was back in town for a little bit. I also looked into taking matial arts classes.
Should be awesome, yes?

We rented the new Call of Duty. I have yet to play it. Perhaps that will be later today.

I do apologize for the lack of insiteful post recently

We Travel Like Gypsies but With Worse Luck and Far Less Gold

For some reason yesterday, I felt the overwhelming desire to move to Montana.
There doesn't seem to be much out there, it is definitely less expensive, and its a ten hour drive to get to Seattle, making it an even shorter flight. All in all it seems like a great idea. More peaceful than New York, and also the first place I'll live that doesn't have a ridiculous crime-rate.





Can't be all that bad, right?